Superfunkomatic - Observations of the Socially Inept

the brain does very funny thing when anxious or bored. for the past three years infrequently slept well with any type of regularity. bouts of weeks at a time when i didn’t sleep more than a few hours per night.

i’d internalized my anxiety about my job and in turn it stopped my mind from being able to shutdown at night. always thinking about how much i hated my work, the daily boredom, the lack of consequences and monotony. boredom as a tool of self-destruction. it’s hard to believe the body can take that abuse for so long. which makes me wonder how people that live and hate their job for 20-30 years can continue, no wonder they are depressed and listless - they’ve got nothing left, their bodies must be completely beaten down.

since leaving my job i’ve spent lots of time thinking how lucky i was to have created an out and changed the negative cycles of behavior.

since quitting my job and returning to school i’ve been challenged and stimulated. not only do i sleep regulary but i’m able to sleep for longer periods. the baggage under the eyes has started to disappear and i’ve notice my disposition changing.

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