Jun 29 2005
feeling younger, getting older
eternally watching the ticking clock. watch as minutes pass. hours. days. remember when…
waiting for time to pass to move on to the next thing that makes us wish the time would pass.
the value of now, lost in the endless waiting for the future.
at 15 waiting for 16 and driving, and then waiting, and sometimes not, for 18 and drinking, and 18 through the 20s for legitimacy from the “olders”, to getting legitimacy and our “place” and wondering why we wanted it, then looking back for youth wishing for the 20s and the teens and simplicity.
from here, 35, 21 looks so far away and yet the core of my being is still 21 in a slightly worn exterior.
things that need to be looked after now, seem to now dim the possibility of things that were thought of and dreamt of then. “oh, when i just get to “that” point in life i’ll be ready to do “that”.”
funny how some of the people at “that” point never really had or made time to do “that” thing they wanted.
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